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I thought it would be a good time to post a health update. About a year and a half ago I started developing scary symptoms. They include but have not been limited to left side and facial weakness, reduced coordination, postural tremor, twitching, stiffness, pins and needles, muscle burn, and numbness. Over time some things have become difficult to do like brushing my daughter’s hair and washing dishes. I also feel like my son might knock me over when he comes running towards me. Over the last year and a half I have done extensive research, seen several doctors, and had many test. It has been scary at times, frustrating, and character building.
This week I moved a step closer to a diagnosis. I read that you can test for Parkinson’s Disease by taking a trial of medicine for it. I saw a new neurologist this past Monday and he give me a trial of Sinement. I like this new doctor because he agreed with me that not knowing is the hardest part. It might sound weird but I couldn’t wait to try it. I know it sounds weird to my mother. But you see, whatever it is I already have it and I want to start treating it. Maybe if I could ignore it I might choose denial but my symptoms are impossible to ignore. They are so annoying!
I took my first dose and I started feeling different about 30 minutes later. I didn’t feel stiff when I stood up. My left side weakness went away. My hands became more coordinated. I feel more balanced. I felt more at peace. I do not feel cured but I am significantly improved.
I don’t think this proves I have PD but it is one step closer. Part of me is happy about it. The part that just wants to know what is wrong and the part that is enjoying feeling better but there is of course a part that isn’t happy about it. The part that doesn’t want an “old person’s disease”, the part that remembers how my grandmother suffered in her final stages of Parkinson’s Disease, and the part that sympathizes with my mother. I know I would be devastated if my child got sick. I just keep coming back to the idea that everyone has to deal with something. Overall I have been pretty lucky.